Thursday, June 20, 2013
感慨与不安
不安的是,我开始要面对一往曾经想要逃开的一切。上课,读书,学习,这些只会让我拥有更多更多的所缘,脑海里会越来越乱,离开解脱的烦恼越来越远。
我根本没有想要上进的心,这才是真正最可怕的一点。
不是没有能力把一切搞好,只是真的没有想要上进的心,因为那真的不是我想要的,不是我会享受的,更不是我会喜欢的。
很难过,因为真的没有倾诉对象,倾诉了真的也没用。
唉。。真的不知该怎么办了。
不想伤害任何人,更不想制造任何麻烦,可是再这样下去会不会制造更多麻烦?
佛陀... 我知道您已经进入涅磐了,也留下了最好的佛法给我,我更知道我应该要走最对的路,可是我现在真的不知如何是好,因为我放不下。
怎么办。:(
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Heavy Rainy Day
In myanmar, when i used to be a monk, we used to hold our arm bowl, to beg for rice along the village. Even though when it was raining, we used to practice in this way. During that time, I wont feel scare of heavy rain like now, as that time i kept only my attention to my meditation target when walking and begging for rice. Human nowaday they always live under fear, too happy, and unhappy sometimes. The up and dowm pf their emotion are always obvious. Unlike my life when I was in Myanmar, about most of the time, I feel very balance, peaceful and quiet as my mind only focus on subject using meditation method taught by my teacher Venerable Punnananda. I feel a lot appreciate to him because he had taught me the best method that can help us to hinder from suffering, temporary and permanently, which is originated or invented by our BUDDHA. I hope and I wish i could finish up the meditation lesson and attain nibbana one day.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
悚惧
Thursday, July 15, 2010
巴利文字典
谢谢这位电脑程序作者 alobha无嗔,sàdhu sàdhu sàdhu!!
Friday, June 25, 2010
有感而发
看着一对情侣,回想起师父讲过的内容,觉得有时候人真的和动物没有什么两样... 人都在做动物也在做的事情 - 出生,找伴侣,在一起,交配,生子,找吃顾家,老,死去。
看着眼前那对情侣,突然觉得他们的心其实不是自己所能控制。他们的心与举动,其实都被他们五根(眼、耳、鼻、舌、身)所控制。突然感觉人就像一台机械,举动其实都被一些条件所控制着。
因为我们都是人,身边的人也是人,每个人都理所当然地在做人应该做的事情,玩着人应该玩的游戏,越玩越不可自拔,越玩越执着-好的也执着,不好的也执着。
就像人间的爱情,明明知道有一天会离开,却越知道越执着。
往往越执着的人,离开那一天越苦。
人生就像一个局,一个被烦恼(贪、嗔、痴)“玩弄在鼓掌之间”的局,我们都是局内人,只有佛陀的教导能够把这个局解开,就是修戒,修定,修慧。
然而,相信的有几个?愿意面对的有几个?愿意跳出来的又有几个?